My Blue Heaven

2006-05-12T19:31:00.000+08:00

Hello, hello.
I'm bored so this is the new leilovesme.
http://brightest-.blogspot.com/

( I still love you, hubby! )

goodbye, My Blue Heaven (:

Secret Oath

2006-05-10T22:57:00.000+08:00

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AC LOST TO SA TODAY!!! ):
ponned the personality profiling thingy today to go down to Police Academy to watch the rugby match. was glad to see people like hubby, Ah Si, Meizuo, Pon Star, Yanyi! and Nauveed. haha, miss them! Shun, Wei and I were standing at the 'SA side', so our cheering and presence highly irritated those Saints, or so I heard, hahaha.
but well, AC LOST! which marks the end of their 8-year ( i think ) reign as champions. how devastating! )':

anyways, BE HAPPY ALDRIC GIRLFRIENDZX!!
put the smile back on your face ohkay! and get well soon!! LOVEEEEE :D

Trying to understand how with little to no effort
You've got me eating out of the palms of your hands

Why Is He Right?

2006-05-08T21:24:00.000+08:00

with my computer reformatted, I feel so handicapped without Adobe Photoshop!!! oh, pity me.

anyway, on Saturday, a once-in-a-life-time thing struck me- literally. that morning, lightning struck DIRECTLY at my house, no kidding- DIRECTLY AT MY HOUSE. the thunder was roaringly loud, you'd never imagine how loud it was. the thunder and a great flash of light woke my family up from our lazy Saturday slumber. oh poo, I wanted to sleep more. but anyway, the point is, because of that lucky event, the televisions at home don't work and I didn't get to watch So You Think You Can Dance just now!!!!!!! I'm one sad kid ):

GP test tomorrow! may God bless His children /:

If I wake up next to you
Good luck,
I hope you're there

The Phrase That Pays

2006-05-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

1AA2's class party at Wen's house yesterday!
groccery shopped with Shu, MengQi, Matin & Irving before heading to Wen's house. OH MY POO, Wen's house is so incredibly huge! you'd never imagine the massiveness of her house! we spent like an hour exploring her house and taking plenty pictures. the other girls came and we had plentifun in the kitchen! all the talking, laughing, eating, squealing and photo-taking while preparing the fruits made work fun :D
pizza for dinner and some started drinking. like Wen the Smart, who decided to pour vodka on her pizza. ohkay, let's say EWWW. then lousy Hector got all red-faced and drunk, and he puked, HAHA. a game of I've Never was entertaining, leaving some red-faced and redder-faced. blah blah blah, left earlier then the rest ( Cinderella Me X: ) with Jarrod & Vani and that ended my day.
OHKAY, why did I write all that?
I think I love my class! :D

Hold your head high, heavy heart

Hotel Roosevelt

2006-05-06T00:49:00.000+08:00

I hate farewells.
Earlier, I went to the airport to send my Uncle, Aunty and cousins off, as they were migrating to China for a few years. I went there thinking that I was not that close to them, and it wouldn't mean much to me. But alas! I was the FIRST to start crying. I think it's just the idea of seperation that pains. It was most heart-wrenching when we all saw how my Ah Ma held on to my Aunty's hand so tightly, letting go so reluctantly. And my Ah Ma cried. My Ah Ma is the strongest woman on earth, I love her so much, and it was the first time I saw her cry.
I HATE FAREWELLS!!!!

Because it won't fail too much more this year
The summer's gone, but I'm still right here

We're So Far Away

2006-05-02T21:29:00.000+08:00

Fat Mel says, I hope you've had a great day.

tonight, I had the worst experience coming home. first, I missed my stop. then, while walking, I encountered THREE RATS. THREE FUCKING RATS. I curse all rats or any creature related to them ( except my darling hamster, Baby ), 'cause they scare the poop outta me.

Did you know how you would move me well
I don’t even think so
But the moments magic swept us away
And it’s so close
But we’re so far away

2006-05-01T01:35:00.000+08:00

( I feel like eating chocolates, preferably Cadbury's Three Wishes or Van Houten's Semi-Sweet Almonds, right now! )

Baby Blue

2006-04-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

Sorry I never was everything you ever dreamed
But kept at bay for just in case that day

I want to say that...

1. Aldric is my GIRLfriend WOrzXZXZx, HAHAHA.
2. I Pink-Slipped myself on Friday to go back to SN for Sports Meet! :D
3. the sky was absolutely gorgeous that day after the rain. GORGEOUS, I swear!
4. I am so proud of Green House for clinching overall Champion trophy.
5. I am even prouder of Green House for winning Best Cheerleading Routine!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D
6. we TRIED to surprise Joan at Marche.
7. VALINE, YOU'D BETTER COME BACK IN JULY. I MISS YOU!!!
8. I need $$$. I wanna shop!!!!!!!!
9. I watched Aquamarine today cos it had mermaid inside and it was better than I expected.
NICE! :D ( plus, the mermaid girl's so pretty & the guy's one hot/cute stuff! )
10. SICHEN! YOU'RE MY BEST FRIEND AND I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!! :D

We always knew that you worked better
I don't want you to love me anymore

2006-04-29T02:26:00.000+08:00

( sorry I'm one day late! )

I LOVE YOU JOANIE! :D

How Deep Is Your Love

2006-04-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

Track & Field Meet in school today! had much fun talking and laughing at people with Shu En and Sheryll, haha (:
AND, I'M SO PROUD OF MISS TAN HUIPING. she ran like the wind and came in first in practically everything she ran for! like the star of the meet :D and YUANBING too! she ran so fast, it was so fun watching her. I'm so happy for them! :D

ohkay, gotta get down to doing art ( like, again ) and some geog /:
don't miss me too much! xD

Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down when they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

Goodbye We're Falling Fast

2006-04-22T21:31:00.000+08:00

LAST WEEK-

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IT'S THE WEEKEND! :D
but it's ending tomorrow ):

I really can't wait for June holidays.
and I really wish that there're 48 hours in a day, 2 weekdays and 5 days of weekend.

( someone take me on a shopping spree, pretty please! )

I hold your hand with mine
In this picture perfect light

Feel It

2006-04-15T13:16:00.000+08:00

SO LET ME HEAR YOU SAY, I LIKE THAT!

haha. anyways, last night was an awesome night :D
after our cell's TGIF party ( 5 salvations, yay! ), I went to watch Take The Lead and OHMYFUCKINGGOSH, IT WAS UBER FUCKING AWESOME! the dance and dancers were like so so hot and sexy and throughout the movie I had urges to stand up and dance. it was so good that immediately after the show I got the soundtrack! haha, and for the first time ( you'll only get to hear me say this once in your lifetime cos it's not exactly my favourite ), I felt like clubbing, HAHA. so I went home and started dancing and dancing. I LOVE DANCING :D

Get up on the floor, get your dance on
Cos your backbone's connected to your ass, go on
The ladies all dressed up high fashion (hot!)
Dancing all sexy with passion
Honey, if you don't mind me asking
Can you feel all that bass in that ass, hun?

Making Love To The Camera

2006-04-14T11:07:00.000+08:00

I need to:
- shop
- watch Take The Lead
- watch Burn The Floor!!!!!!
- thank God it's Friday :D
- shop

This is the beginning of something
Too strong to break now

2006-04-12T22:05:00.000+08:00

Your kiss, Your smile
Your mind
Your sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn’t wanna want you
Didn’t wanna need you so bad
Didn’t wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn’t wanna need you
Didn’t wanna need anyone
Now look what you’ve done

Now I can’t go on without you
I’m naked, I can’t fake it
I’m not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you
The way I do

Your touch, Your skin
Can’t believe the way you let me in
Don’t rush tonight
I need you like the ocean needs the tide

Didn’t wanna hold you
Didn’t wanna need you so bad
Didn’t wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn’t wanna need you
Didn’t wanna need anyone
Now look what you’ve done

Now I can’t go on without you
I’m naked, I can’t fake it
I’m not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you
The way I do

I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountaintop all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look what you’ve done

Now I can’t go on without you
I’m naked, I can’t fake it
Now I’m not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you
The way I do

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
Baby, the way I do

I love you
I need you
I want you

2006-04-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

I’d walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
And we'll just laugh along because
We know that none of them have felt this way

:D :D :D

Dressed To Kill

2006-04-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

And I can't stop pretending

That you're forever mine

The Minstrel's Prayer

2006-04-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

AHHH, JC is robbing me of my life! I mean, who wakes up before 5 ( except me )!?
anyways, I was just thinking about how much fun my life has been, till now. I MISS SN! I MISS SA! ):

and maybe all we gotta do, is to fall in love all over again.

Just hold the hand and drop the knee
You're facing love
You're embracing melody

You Mean The World To Me

2006-04-03T19:31:00.000+08:00

I HATE PW.
I HATE PW.
I HATE PW.
and I hate being alone.

p.s.: I hate PW.
___________________________

Be careful with the heart in your hands because it's mine
(It's been broken and battered many times before)
But I left it at your door on Valentine's Day
Because you mean the world to me

2006-04-03T00:12:00.000+08:00

( I know Mr Pon Star loves me, and so does everyone else :D )

I give my heart to You because
I can't stop falling in love with you
I'll never stop falling in love with You

2006-03-30T22:51:00.000+08:00

I was in love with you when we were younger you were mine
When I see you from time to time I still feel like
You can see it no matter how I try to hide
And even though there’s another man who’s in my life
You will always be my boo

Vienna

2006-03-28T20:50:00.000+08:00

So this is your maverick,
This is Vienna

I'M BACK! haha, I bet everyone has been missing me like, hell lot :D

Encounter Weekend with Estee, Sam, Crystal, Marilyn and Yafen over the weekend was pretty awesome, albeit the TOTALLY GLAMOROUS campsite, the revolting toilet and me mastering the art of sleeping while standing ( as in, seriously! ), haha.

today, I went back to SA! I was like so fucking happy, I couldn't stop laughing and smiling and hugging everyone. I felt like I was home again, and it was pretty damn awesome to see everyone, like the class and Kenneth and CHERELL and FISH! it's like, AHHHH, just so good to finally see everyone, felt like the old times. I miss them so so so much! spent some time there before taking the bus home with Aldric aka He Pees, HAHA.
how I love the day (:

alright, I gotta go DYE MY HAIR. I was so very fortunately caught by the DM for my hair and skirt and so, I'm off to be a very good student. be good, kids! :D

Only so many words that we can say
Spoken upon long-distance melody
This is my hello
This is my goodness

One Last

2006-03-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

once again, Art is driving me nuts and forcing me into a major depression. someone please tell me again, why did I choose Art?

some people want flowers, others want gorgeous jewellery; all I want is time.

We both know
It's better if we just let it go

Amy Says

2006-03-16T12:45:00.000+08:00

Let's play pretend, act like it goes naturally

and these pretty much sum up my past two days (:

at times like this, I wish I weren't a -. go figure.

Your words echo in her mind
And your words are clear and she knows that you are here

Rough Landing, Holly

2006-03-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

firstly, I LOVE YOU JACK! :D thanks for visiting me, or else the furthest I'd have gone today is my living room.
and, thank you Mr Pon Star for uh, being you! haha, you are my sunshine! xD

today is a horribly boring and depressing day.
all I did today was eat, stare at the computer and play Solitaire.
to look on the brighter side, I have been online for a recored-breaking TEN hours. other than the times when I get food or when Jack came over, I have been in front of the computer. I bet no one can beat me to that!
and, playing Solitaire for almost the whole day has made me an expert. just now, I managed a record-breaking $909! usually, the most I get is $400+, but not today! when I have the chance I'll show you my record!

and so, as much as I wanna go on and on, like how I used to, about how fucking perfect life is, I can't. I hate how we tend to end up doing things for the sake of others and not much for ourselves.
because I'm selfish and I love myself.

And the time just passed, nights moved slow
And she was all I had

2006-03-13T00:27:00.000+08:00

Boy, I’m digging on your energy
And I’m digging what you're telling me
So I wrote this little melody
And dedicate it to my favorite lover

2006-03-11T14:01:00.000+08:00

Now I see, what love means
It's so unbelievable

2006-03-10T17:38:00.000+08:00

All my friends say, "Please don't love her."
What did I gain? Now I miss her so.

Move on, let her go.

Ain't Love Grand

2006-03-10T15:24:00.000+08:00

But you'd look better if I was blind

IT'S FRIDAY!!! like, finally! :D this has been such a surreal week, I don't even feel like school has started. orientation at AC was ahem, short, but pretty much fun. I have a nice OG too, though we only had a day together. still, I MISS SA!!!!! ):
and since school at AC started, I've only been to ONE lecture- GREAT START, MEL. /:
AND THANK GOD I HAVE LEA AT AC WITH ME! I LOVE YOU, LEANNE TEO!
AND AND, I KNOW ALDRIC LOVES ME! haha, yay for you, Mr Pon Star! xD

You would rather bleed than be without her
Gone are the tender whispers dancing in your ears
Replaced with lackluster memories you cry
Your screams play in your empty room

2006-03-05T01:03:00.000+08:00

and this made me cry )':
THANK YOU ALDRIC THE PON STAR FOR HELPING ME MAKE LEAVING SA AN EASIER TASK.
( please sense the sacarsm, heh )

to the Darlings of 06A7- Jessica, Aldric, Yvonne, Shi Hui, Regina, Si-Min, Nauveed, Elyas, Nicole, Aaron, Loy, Maybelline and Cailin: as small a Civics Group as we are, the fun we had together is far from little. 06A7 will always have a place in my heart! I LOVE YOU ALL!

A Tornado; An Owl

2006-03-02T12:35:00.000+08:00

ohkay, so much has been happening these few days, it's tough to grasp and get used to it. for those who have stood by me throughout, especially people like Charlotte, Tammy, Jack and Aldric, I thank you guys so so so much and I love you all alot (:
I am so touched by the concern of my friends and now, I really know who my true friends are.

anyways, I have decided that I won't blog my heart out anymore. I mean, sometimes I'll say what I really mean, and other times I won't. I guess if you know me well enough you'll know when to believe and when not to.

Half of what I say is bliss,
The other half is meaningless:
Comfortable lines.
Waiting for the clock to heal us.

2006-02-28T18:18:00.000+08:00

I saved the last dance for you

120 Ways To Kill You: An Illustrated Children's Book

2006-02-25T10:09:00.000+08:00

since I have a Johari Window, I decided that it would only be fair to have a Nohari Window as well.
and also because I'm bored la.
My Johari Window ( the nice stuffs )
My Nohari Window ( the bad stuffs )
please do it for me! :D

yesterday, Aldric, Nauveed, Aaron, Elyas and I spent more than an hour trying to get out of school before the official time. we practically walked the ENTIRE St. Andrew Village before Nauveed hopped over the wall in front of the Junior School. we heard someone shouting, so we thought it was the security guard and walked away. then we had to walk all the way back to the college. in the end, Aaron and Elyas jumped over the fence near the side gate while Aldric and I, being smart and smart, took the Green Slip and went out of school with clear conscience. ohkay, not that clear since we pretended we were sick, haha. in the end, we got out of school just an hour before they opened the gates, WOW, haha.

Enter the scene starting with a dial tone
Tightrope over these razorblade complications
Cutting myself almost every day
Let it feel so real, let me taste the pain

MFEO

2006-02-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

hello, if you are as bored as I am right now, you might wanna do this for me:
Mel's Johari Window

haha, yep. I think I should sleep soon, but before I do, I wanna say I know everyone loves and misses me. nothing new, yes? xD

Maybe,
We were made, we were made
For each other
Is it possible
For the world to look this way forever?

2006-02-21T19:06:00.000+08:00

Now there's no place else I could be but

Here in your arms

Come Home Soon

2006-02-19T09:52:00.000+08:00

talking to Cindy yesterday made me realise how much I love my friends in St. Andrews, especially those in the one and only OG5. they're the first people I know in this whole new place, from strangers to acquaintances to friends. initially, I hated school so fucking much I wish I could die or something, but now that in two weeks' time, we're all gonna be seperated into different schools or faculties, I really can't bear to part with them ):
now I know, this is what God wanted for me- for me to be truly blessed (:

I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO SO MUCH!!!!! :D

Never really thought you could mean
So much in such a little time

Honourable Mention

2006-02-17T19:58:00.000+08:00

In the movie of my life,
Starring you,
Instead of me

and I've always known that EVERYONE LOVES ME! xD

The oldest movie I ever saw was the one we wrote together

Where The Highway Ends

2006-02-16T15:59:00.000+08:00

just when lots of eviable people, such as my bRuddddArzxzx*, are all excited and ready to go for the WHY-AM-I-NOT-THERE concert of
,
I am very much stuck at home with this disfiguring, lethally itchy rash on my fat thighs. I swear, the itch is killing me. >:(
WHY AM I NOT PREPARING TO GO FOR FRANZ CONCERT TOO!!!!!!!!! ))))):

From all the things we just can't take
All the forced smiles and dreams that washed away
Hold on, hold tight, be strong, it will be alright

2006-02-14T12:50:00.000+08:00

So just cut off the lights awhile
And kiss me like you wanted to
Then I'll sing in style
Like a black heart valentine pill

Happy St. Valentine's! (:

Just Like Heaven

2006-02-13T12:42:00.000+08:00

I am so bored.

with nothing better on my mind, I pray I can get into the school I chose.
PLEASE LET ME IN.

I am so bored.

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ah, True Love (:

Above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

2006-02-11T01:31:00.000+08:00

DEAR LORD,

I THANK YOU SO (I'm not going to swear here, HAHA ) MUCH FOR BLESSING ME WITH MY RESULTS. THEY'RE NOT THE BEST BUT THEY'RE WAY BETTER THAN I DESERVE, AND I THANK YOU GOD FOR THAT.
I THANK YOU FOR BLESSING ME WITH MY PARENTS, MY TEACHERS AND MY FRIENDS. THEY WERE MY PILLARS OF SUPPORT & ENCOURAGEMENT DURING THE WHOLE STRESSFUL YEAR.
I THANK YOU LORD FOR BEING PATIENT WITH ME. THOUGH I'M A HORRIBLE SINNER, YOU STILL LOVE ME AND CONTINUE TO GUIDE AND BLESS ME.
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, I THANK YOU LORD FOR SENDING ME MY ANGEL/WANGZI TO BE WITH ME WHENEVER I NEEDED HER! :D
THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH, GOD! <3
and my life can't get any better (:

IN JESUS' MOST PRECIOUS AND HOLY NAME, AMEN!

No One Will Do

2006-02-09T14:21:00.000+08:00

I don't want nobody but you

You're the only one for me, boo

Don't you know that you are the true

I don't want nobody but you

Half a year and counting.

So Long Not Goodbye

2006-02-06T20:17:00.000+08:00

today, Valine Tjitra, one of my greatest friend on earth, my favourite tablemate, my fellow awsen, the closest to an angel, left for LA. )':

thank you, Val, for the bestest time, the laughs and the smiles. I wouldn't have survived these two years without you! Santa Monica better treat you well!
and, I'M MISSING YOU ALREADY!! )))):

SEE YOU SOON, VALINE TJITRA! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU! (:

We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart

Wherefore Art Thou Romeo?

2006-02-03T19:44:00.000+08:00

I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference
And it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you

oh and have I mentioned, my little brother is one budding Ah Beng?
/:

If I profane with my unworthiest hand
This holy shrine, the gentle fine is this:
My lips, two blushing pilgrims, ready stand
To smooth that rough tough with a tender kiss

Happy Cheena New Year

2006-01-31T17:21:00.000+08:00

And I know a love that will never grow old

Today, the 31st of January marks the Birth of My Breasts and the Near-Death of Myself. you might not see the link between these two, but there is a link, HAHH.

you see, I've been eating like a big fat pig these months, so I've been growing fat. and grow fat-> bigger boobs, hence, the Birth of My Breasts, YAY! for once I can proudly say, "I have breasts, I have breasts!!" please join me in the celebration! :D

the downside is, grow fat -> be fat. yesterday, I received TWO comments saying how I've put on weight ( now, the cue to cry! ). I was greatly devastated ( and still am ), so I decided to go to MacRitchie for a nice jog/walk this morning, hence, the Near-Death of Myself. omg, I was really half dead & walking like a zombie- walking more than 10km like a zombie. I was picturing the headlines of tomorrow's papers- 'Girl found dead in MacRitchie, not Rape or Murder but Exhaustion'.

so, now I don't know if I should celebrate or mourn.

ohkay, anyways, CNY has been great but tiring and before it's too late, HAPPY CHEENA NEW YEAR!

please remember to miss / love me :D

`immmma twwwitx derrr worrrx*~

2006-01-26T12:14:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA, whilst everyone else ( except hubby & Aaron since I'm talking to them online now, HAH ) are sleeping their heads off in lectures, I'm here! laughing at very laughable twits, haha!

last night, Kenneth and I had the funniest time laughing at twits. and damn, it was really too funny. so, we started typing like twits.

omigawddd, diiis isssh shhho farrniiiie worrrx, ma owwn bruuudderrr nnnd iie cuddd norrrt storrrp lafffiinggg siaxx corrrshh vehhh tewiiebeuuur, euuu noeee? iiiee nehhbweeer larrrff shhhho harrrd lykkk fcccck shhhho lonnnng liiiaox. immma bewwwwy kwwettt baobbbeiii derrr worrrx, miiie steeeaddd saeee derrr. wee isssh emo kiiiia nnnd weeee lubbb siiimppple plannn derrr worrrx. deyyy roxxxx kiiiex! immmma switttt roxxxy gurrlx burrrt iiie disslykkk backkstabbbers! dissssh issssh shhho weetardddeeed nnnd 841, hmmmphxz, arbbbissssh~! orrrkieees, dunnnch lyddddat liiiaox. takkairrrre horrrrx, weee wieeell beee sissstahhhs/bruuudderrrs 184! kekexx, 881!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

X Ctry

2006-01-25T17:06:00.000+08:00

APPLAUSE PLEASE!

why? because the most Funsporty Mel ( you know, like fugly means fucking ugly, HAHA ) participated in Saint Andrew's Cross Country. I actually ran 5/6 of the whole 3.2km route with Nicole, which is an accomplishment considering I actually bothered to RUN. yay, yay! (:
after cross country, OG5 + Sam & Siva headed down to Junction 8 ( like the coolest place on earth please! ). it has been a damn long time since we all came together like that and it felt really good to be with them once again :D after eating, we just sat there and talked and laughed our asses off. omg, I miss them so so so much!

and Yanyi, you know we will be behind you no matter what! LOVE (:

The Notebook (2)

2006-01-21T12:11:00.000+08:00

I love you, ~~Allie~~. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in future, every day we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours.

And, my darling, you will always be mine.

omg, The Notebook is the sweetestest novel I've ever read. Ever.

The Notebook

2006-01-18T21:43:00.000+08:00

But he had been in love once, that he knew. Once and only once, and a long time ago. And it had changed him forever. Perfect love did that to a person, and this had been perfect.

2006-01-16T20:46:00.000+08:00

Too strong for too long
And I can't be without you
Baby
And I'll be waiting up
Until you get home
Cause I can't sleep
Without you baby
Anybody who's
Ever loved you
Knows just what I feel

MISS YOU ):

She Is

2006-01-12T17:17:00.000+08:00

ohkay, guess what, I actually love school ( excluding lectures, heh )!

outing with part of the OG on Monday was fun- FUN and FUNNY. hahaha, from silicon sprays to coke lights, I think that they can just make a joke out of anything xD
yep, these days in school were mostly spent with the OG, though we're seperated into our different classes, or Civics Group as they call it, already. I really love it when the group of us gather at our Usual Area ( which usually changes, haha ) and just talk and laugh and play games and laugh and talk (: they're such a nice and unpretentious group of people I can't not love them :D

and the best thing about SA is that they sell CHOCOLATES :D :D :D

She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want I never knew I needed

2006-01-10T12:06:00.000+08:00

And only time will tell us if we're gonna make it
There's no way to be sure but
Baby, I'll take my chances with you

(:

2006-01-08T20:06:00.000+08:00

If you wanna see the best tribe in town

Just say Arts Fac and we'll turn around

Oh why do I feel this way?

Hey! It must be Sequila!

ohkay, this post will be a total contrast to my previous ones because Mel the Anti-Social managed to socialise, haha.

Orientation Finale on Friday was a major blast! I had much more fun than the first three days combined, really. we had competitions where our tribe, Sequila won the Best Cheer ( we had our little cheerleading squad, yay )! and the night ended off with disco lights & great music blasting in the Hall whilst everyone danced and danced and danced. the spirit in Arts Fac ( we make up only 1/5 of SA's population ) is so awesome and high and aiya, I just love all of us :D
and of course, I love my OG5 a whole lot! from being gay to cheering, from playing games to chatting, I've had so much fun and I've learnt so much from them ( like bimbotic cheers, haha ).

but no matter what, nothing can be compared to the wonders of St Nics! LOVE YOU ALL!

2006-01-04T20:00:00.000+08:00

Then it goes fast
You think of the past
Suddenly everything has changed

thank god school's getting better, or else I'd just kill myself, honestly.
and thank god, once again, that my OG has only three guys.

last night I had the most horrible School-Sickness ( you know, like being Home-Sick ). After I got home from school, I felt so miserable and reading Sichen's blog didn't help, at all. but it was when Val & Jack asked me "how's school?" ( after many other people did ) that I couldn't stop crying. I honestly never knew I would miss Saint Nicholas that much.
actually, I just miss all my friends too much. ))):

so, please please please come and crash SA, school's so un-school without all of you!!

2006-01-02T21:49:00.000+08:00

ohkay, when I mentioned in my previous post that I won't be missing 2005, I was fucking lying. I miss everything about 2005, or at least everything back in St Nicholas'.
when I enter class this year, no more will I see a reading Edeline or sleeping Cleo at the unearthly 640am. I won't sit in class and stare at the weird orange walls, waiting for Valine to bring her Mickey lunchbox ( ie FOOD ). I won't be able to laugh/scream at/ignore Miss ChooTeckChan and her hair and her "uh, uh, uhh girls...".
No more will there be "shit, I don't wanna go for art" with Jillian; "ho-t cro-see boons" or "and she weeeeeeel be lubbbbed" with Joan; "did you bring food today?" or "I can't stand ChooTeckChan" with Valine; "Jack! you know...." or "how Jack how" to Jacklyn; "I wanna pon dance today" with Leanne/Sara/Dominique. and there'll be no more "ehhh, you know _____ has a new album/show" with Sale; "come on, yo" from Cheryl; "hello Lesbian" with Charlotte...
most importantly, I won't get to see my dearest best friend who has been everywhere these 2 1/2 years. I won't get to laugh and scream and sing and draw and sleep and dance and play with Nie Sichen in class anymore. All the times we had thinking about eating ( HAHA ), the times when we basically poured out our insides to each other during Math or Chinese lessons, the long toilet breaks, the long but fun walks home from school and even our little squabbles and disagreements- I'll miss every part of it. ))):

so, I'm really dreading school tomorrow because school will be so fucking different without AWSENS, the effsi people, YEEEAAA and all my other friends. I MISS ST NICS! ))):

on a lighter note, hello friends, please tell me a suitable time so that I can crash cj and see all of you! (: I LOVE YOU ALL!

Together We'll Ring In The New Year

2005-12-31T11:53:00.000+08:00

Jay Chou's smelling my foot! HAHAHAHAHA X:

abnormal company = abnormal behaviour

anyways, GOODBYE 2005, I won't be missing you very much!

Last chance for changing lanes but you missed it by a mile
Why won't you listen to me
This must be it
Welcome to the New Year

Oh, Hello

2005-12-29T12:25:00.000+08:00

yesterday, The Unglam TaiTais ( Dora & I ) went to Sunny Sentosa! disappointingly, Mister Sun was playing Hide & Seek with us, so we didn't get to tan much. had much fun nevertheless, being 100 percent bitches- laughing at people, ogling at hot bods and little boys, bitching ( a little only la ) & well, laughing at people. HAHA (:

I want/need/have to SHOP. hello hello, who would like to donate a few hundred dollars to Mel's Shopping Funds? :D

Hey
Didn't I know you?
Mystery man

2005-12-27T15:59:00.000+08:00

Two wrongs don't make a right
But I don't care tonight
Maybe we're all that we needed

you know I love you when I'm upset but I don't swear, or at least not at you.

so yep, I love you alright (:

2005-12-26T11:58:00.000+08:00

now, this is what Christmas is really all about.

HAPPY BOXING DAY!

2005-12-26T00:30:00.000+08:00

I REALLY HONESTLY WHOLE-HEARTEDLY WANT THESE UBER UBER UBER MUCH:

and these too (though the desire's not as strong):

AHHH, I NEED to SHOP. no wait, I think I need MONEY more /:

I'm bored and I can only unwrap my presents after 17 hours, because my Mummy says so. like, what the fuck!?

2005-12-25T13:31:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas baby
You sure did treat me nice
Merry Chirstmas baby
You sure did treat me nice, oh yeah
Buy me a diamond ring for Christmas
I feel like I'm in Paradise
Im feeling mighty fine, yo
I've got music on my radio, oh yeah oh
I'm feeling mighty fine, yo
I've got music on my radio

I feel like I'm going to kiss you
Underneath the mistletoe

Santa coming down the chimney
Half past three
All those pretty presents
For my baby and me

Oh, Merry Christmas baby
You sure did treat me nice, treat me so nice
Buying me all those pretty presents
I feel like I'm in Paradise

Merry Christmas girl
Singing Merry Christmas baby
Merry Christmas baby
Sure did treat me nice, you know you do
Merry Christmas baby
Sure did treat me nice

I got all those pretty presents
I feel like I'm in Paradise

Oh, Merry Christmas baby
Merry Christmas baby
Oh, I feel like I'm in Paradise
I'm in my Paradise

Merry Christmas baby, Happy New Year

hello friends, Happy Christmas and Merry New Year! :D

and, quick wrap yourself up! i don't care ohkay, you offered yourself! haha (:

2005-12-23T02:33:00.000+08:00

Come home, I won't forget the times that we had

So please don't be a part of my past

out with Jill, Carmen and Cherell, my bestest friends in Primary School. we ate, talked, updated each other about our lives, laughed, took a little walk down Memory Lane, walked, ate and talked. Carmen, Cherell and I realised that we've known each other for a fucking DECADE, while Jill still needs four years, haha! and though we have been and will be fucking seperated, I know that we'll have many more decades together (:

Jill, Carmen, Cherell - I LOVE / MISS YOU !!! :D

Looking back, that's all I have anymore

2005-12-22T09:12:00.000+08:00

I'm bored. it's so early in the morning but I'm up and very much awake. I can't have my breakfast because my brother's watching Narnia from a pirated vcd downstairs and I refuse to join him because I want to watch it in the theatre /:

yesterday, the Tai Yang Xiao Nu Hai (the stupid names Jack comes up with,haha), which makes up of Jack and I, went tanning at Sunny Sentosa. then we had BUFFET at SAKAE which gave us much satisfaction and a uber huge belly.
at home, we had an impromptu Christmas karaoke session where we uncovered my little brother's hidden talent, singing. haha, my brother's so cute (:

sometime last week, at 3 a.m.-
me: aye, I'm bored.
(silence for about 30 seconds)
her: let's go play football!
me: !?!?

so, we didn't play football because it was bloody 3 in the morning, hahaha. but she's so cute/funny anyway xD

Sun + Sushi = Headache !

2005-12-19T00:53:00.000+08:00

YAY, i feel majorly accomplished because yesterday, or rather saturday, i actually COOKED a proper meal (ie lunch) ALL BY MYSELF! i'm so proud of myself, because considering mel the future taitai cooked something edible on her FIRST attempt, it's applause-worthy ohkay! most importantly, the one who ate it said it ain't too bad (or if she didn't think so, she sure can lie), so YAY :D
attempts to tan failed because the sun ain't our friend, but there was a wedding ceremony going on at the beach which was uber sweeeeeet- I WANT!!
and we saw a condom amongst the rocks, HAHAHA.

ohhhkay, i'm off to get some beauty sleep. good night, sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite! you know you love me! (((:

2005-12-17T00:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SUAVE SIXTEEN, WEAK ONE!

i don't care what other people say,
i love you the most anyway! :D
<3>

2005-12-15T21:46:00.000+08:00

what i love about these four days:
- hip hop dance class with jack & siqin (much stress, sweat & FUN)
- rocking the SEAhorse at the playground
- toys r us, fountain of wealth, shopping at suntec
- ESPLANADE ROOF TERRACE
- dinner & aimless walking with the one i love (((:
(though it was just dinner & aimless walking)
- rewatching Alot Like Love with, who else, but the one i love ((:
(ahhhh, ashton youre-so-cuteeee kutcher!!!)
- SICHEN'S BACK!!!!!!! YAYYAYYAYYAYYAY :D
- 9 hour LIUXINGHUAYUAN marathon with The BioPonners (ie jack & lea)
(omg, i think i just rekindled my love for daomingsi!!!)
- very pointless but nevertheless happppy conversation with melissa (:
(thanks for your fruitful attempts to cheer me up!)

alrighty, this is one boring post. but i'm happy and i will continue to be happy as long as i have people who make me happy around me. HAHA (:

ps: it's JING on teevee in the photo! :D

2005-12-13T13:27:00.000+08:00

SORRY, i really am ):

alrighty, getting all angsty is not my forte. i'm one happy mel, for now. and if i've been saying stuffs that really hurt, i'm terribly terribly incredibly sorry and i won't excuse myself but i really don't mean them. i've been a bitch but i just have too much on my mind. slap/bite/pinch/stab/punch/kill/scream at me if you must!

TWO more days till sichen comes back. HELLO BESTFRIEND, i fucking need to talk to you. come back already!!

If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you
Trust me, I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away

2005-12-12T12:51:00.000+08:00

hello, hello. let us welcome The Ugly Side of Mel.

Back in school they never taught us
What we needed to know
Like how to deal with despair
Or someone breaking your heart

2005-12-09T00:03:00.000+08:00

bombay beach says:
we need to wear a uniform?
take the taunts and live the shame says:
haha i dont think so
take the taunts and live the shame says:
or at least i hope not
bombay beach says:
huh i want to wear! haha so fun!
take the taunts and live the shame says:
HAHAHA
bombay beach says:
omg mel i dont like your display pic cos i look like a pig from china there! haha
take the taunts and live the shame says:
no you dont! haha but i can change it
bombay beach says:
haha no need nevermind.
bombay beach says:
pig very cute wht!
bombay beach says:
hahaha!

omg, valine's so cute! i think i'm gonna miss her hell lot when she returns to indo for the next TEN long days ): and hello sichen, please come back from china quick! i'm missing you already!!

2005-12-07T13:21:00.000+08:00

wE wAnNa bE aHLiAnZxzX wOrZxx~*

hokay, like eww, hahaha. anyways, i think i'm getting sick. i mean, i know everyone misses me like, hell lot, but if i wanna get better, you all should try not to miss me too much, that way i'll sneeze less. tough feat, i know, but for the sake of my health- no choice, no choice! haha (:

ohh and though she probably won't be seeing this-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARRRRLOTTE! THANKS FOR BEING THE GREATEST LISTENER & I LOVE YOU, UNKER! (:

Mel's Christmas

2005-12-06T13:32:00.000+08:00

Hey Santa, can you bring me something nice
Something nice, something nice
Hey Santa, can you bring me something new
Something new, something new
Like a diamond bracelet or a diamond ring
How 'bout a shiny new, baby blue convertible

Hey Santa, can you bring me everything

yay, i'm starting to anticipate christmas. with all those gorgeous lights and decorations everywhere, it's hard to not get into the festive spirit. let's cross our fingers and pray we won't fall ill before we get to eat all those chocolates and candies. but, pity it doesn't snow in hot hot (heat, haha) singapore.
snow city, anyone?

2005-12-05T01:05:00.000+08:00

move over Paris Hilton,

Nicole Ritchie is HOT! :D

anyways, may i apologise to the victims of my pms-ing (or at least i think it is), i'd have to admit i can kinda suck SOMETIMES :/ but but, of course, certain somebody never fails to make my day! <3

(:

Debutante Gala 2005

2005-12-01T13:48:00.000+08:00

GRAD NIGHT WAS ON TUESDAY!

more photos have been uploaded!
anyways, prom was fantabulous and everyone was gorgeous!

THANK ALL OF YOU FOR THE WONDERFUL MEMORIES AND FOUR YEARS OF PURE BLISS. I CAN'T LOVE ALL OF YOU MORE :D
and fuck, i'm missing all of you already <3

My Way or the Highway

2005-11-27T20:56:00.000+08:00

By the wayside we fell
He said, "It's My way or the highway to
hell."

hokay, just realised that Relient K is a Christian band, which is um, interesting.
hmm, i know that way's right but the highway's what i'll take. not like i have a choice anyway, i can't have both, can i? aye don't know, don't care, i just want to comb my hair. xp

Something tells me that this is going to make sense
Something tells me it's going to take patience
Something tells me that this will all work out in the end

2005-11-26T23:57:00.000+08:00

And I so hate consequences
And running away from You is what my best defense is
I hate these consequences
Cause I know that I let You down
And I don't want to deal with that

Frere Jacques

2005-11-24T16:43:00.000+08:00

because of acute boredom and total lack of $ (insufficiency here is an OVERstatement :/), i've decided that maybe i should work. and it's hard to believe that i'd even come up with such an appalling thought. not that working is bad (okay, maybe it is) but like, think of all the perspiration and blood and dirt and un-glamour. and working is so not training-to-be-a-taitai. however, for the sake of SHOPPING, i am left with no choice but to take that into consideration.
or maybe, i'm just too fucking bored.

check out this edited nursery rhyme:
Louis Vuitton, Louis Vuitton,
Burberry, Burberry?
Handbag Dilemma-
Lulu, Kate or Anya?
Shopping spree, buy all three.

OH, HOW I WISH ):

2005-11-23T14:19:00.000+08:00

i'm bored, bored, BORED. this is so freaking boring. school was boring, tv's boring, coming online's boring, reading's boring, even eating's boring. and after towning for four straight days, town is one of the most boring places on this planet (until the next season or when i have $$$). sighh.
and after learning that i will need NINE FUCKING POINTS to get into ac, i wish i studied for o's. but well, it's over and i shall not care till next feb/march :/

HOHH YEA, please do not tell me the ending of Wangzi because i don't plan to watch the last episode tonight and if i know it before i re-watch the whole show i'll... i'll... scratch you/the blackboard!

amuse me, someone, amuse me! or at least, give me some/alot of chocolates to keep me occupied.
AHH this is such a boring world!

There Cannot Be A Close Second

2005-11-22T21:23:00.000+08:00

fuck bloody hell, i just had the most dreadful experience in my entire sixteen years of life, it was so awfully embarrassing and terribly traumatising i'm not even gonna say what happened. thankfully, she rescued me once again. and really, i don't know what i'd do without her <3

dance farewell today was, ahem, bad. but the brownies were freaking good, plus the juniors were extra sweet. then had yummy xiaolongbaos with YEEAAA. i will sure miss them a whole lot, and dancing will never be the same without them. i won't be missing sn dance alot though, but i freaking miss cheer, especially after watching Honey ):

GCE Ordinary Levels are officially over. everybody, it's time to PARTY :D

When you look at me
There can be no hesitation
There cannot be a close second to you (:

The Frog Prince

2005-11-21T12:16:00.000+08:00

What is this wonder
That love can make you feel?
Am I now deep in slumber
Or is my prince real?

three words to summarise my great great weekend: SHOP, FUN, SHOP.

whoa this has been one busy weekend- from the toturous sashimi buffet to bread from breadtalk (we got too broke); from date with Cedric Diggory to my long awaited Just Like Heaven (Mark Ruffalo is oh-so-charming!!); from shopping to shopping to SHOPPING :D
yesterday i coloured my hair dark purple! though it looks like auburn instead :/ then shopshopshop with bestfriend, oh, the pleasure! unfortunately we got kinda broke and had to satisfy our dying tummies with bread from breadtalk (we couldn't even afford water, haha). BUT, BUT my WANGZI came to our rescue and so i managed to get my prom dress (which looks a tad like a bridal dress). yayness ((: and and omg, the lights at town are like the most gorgeous things ever, especially those outside the istana, i felt like a princess in my faiytale land (with my WANGZI, of course) xD

hokay, i'm looking forward to my vcd marathons and more therapeutic (window) shopping!
enjoy the hols! ;D

This smile on my face
Will carry a love I have known
Like a fairytale come true
Oh, what joy this love has shown

2005-11-17T21:15:00.000+08:00

YAY, YAY, YAY!
here's reason #2 for celebrating: JAY CHOU & PATTY HOU HAVE SPILT!
actually pattyhou denied it, but she was just basically being a piece of pattyhou & is in denial. lei & i decided that jaychou made no comment because he's just being very nice. darn, my hubby can be so considerate at times! :D
okay, actually it means nothing much to me because jaychou's only my 1/2 hubby, but since i'm already so happy, it doesn't hurt to make myself happier, does it? (:

come, come meizuo (my secret gay-husband), let's PARTAYE!

Rockstar

2005-11-17T12:43:00.001+08:00

YAY, YAY, YAY!
today's math paper ended fugly o's off on a good note, which makes me one happy mel! after these four years of suffering (mostly nagging & not much of stress), it's finally OVER :D but everyone else has chem/hist/science papers so i'm celebrating by myself. :/
hokay, i can't wait for my long awaited sashimi buffet & my little date with mr Potter (though i prefer oh-so-cute-Cedric Diggory) tomorrow! ((:

SO LONG, BIG FAT O LEVELS, I WON'T MISS YOU.
SHOPPING, SHOPPING HERE I COME! :D

I'll need a credit card that's got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it

A Synonym For Acquiesce

2005-11-16T17:54:00.000+08:00

to 'de-stress' (like i'm stressed in the first place), i accompanied my friend to watch some touch rugby matches at yck stadium. and whoa, they were very interesting. not much because of the competition, but the competitors! haha i found two yummy eyecandies, they were so cute i tell you, i wanted to ask them for their number. unfortunately i didn't, because their coaches would probably call the police, since they're probably primary four/five. HAHA.

LAST PAPER, LAST PAPER, LAST PAPER TMR!
though i'll probably be partying alone, I CAN'T WAIT!
xD

2005-11-14T00:13:00.000+08:00

AH, lit in 6hours!
i'll get my a1 by writing love messages & sucking up to the markers.

'I love you, Mr Marker.'

'you are my idol'

'sibei the cheeky monkey you' (as quoted by jill. but no jill, later the marker don't like me)

'LuP cHeWzXx'

'pretty eyes, sexaye' (haha, sichen & jill!)

'CALL ME'

shiok, like that 100% a1.
damn shakespeare, i don't friend him! ):

2005-11-13T15:55:00.000+08:00

So lately, been wondering

Who will be there to take my place

When I'm gone you'll need love

To light the shadows on your face

If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all

Then between the sand and stone

Could you make this on your own

If I could, then I would

I'd go wherever you will go

Way up high, or down low

I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out

A way to make it back someday

To watch you, to guide you

Through the darkest of your days

If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all

Then I hope there's someone out there

Who can bring me back to you

I know now, just quite how

My life and love might still go on

In your heart, in your mind

I'll stay with you for all of time

alright, i know i'm ~~rather~~ slow
but, I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG <333
ohhhkay, i've decided that my future spouse has to sing this to me, in addition to Forever Love & TongHua, before i'll agree to marry her/him! ( HINT,HINT)
xD

MELODY'S EATING ADVENTURES

2005-11-10T21:45:00.000+08:00

reason/proof/evidence of my increasing FATNESS:

ohhh, the joy of EATING. (x
now now, who said that mel doesn't eat!?
):

2005-11-08T15:10:00.000+08:00

Undress this world's outer skin

I'll wake up to reality

And see this world in disbelief

Reality in the eyes of the unblind

2005-11-06T01:03:00.000+08:00

where is my frog wangzi!? ):

ohhkay, MEL, STUDY, GO STUDY, GO, GO, GO!

You steal me away,
Like the first time I saw you,
You do me that way

2005-11-04T13:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SUGAR SIXTEEN

DEAREST VALINE TJITRA

be very happy always, as happy as the way you always make me!

I LOVE YOU LIKE MAD PUNGSAI, VAL! <3

2005-11-02T00:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY

NIE SICHEN,
MY MOST NARCISSISTIC BEST FRIEND/BOYFRIEND/LES PARNTER/HIMBO
you're eighteen & old, so we're counting on you to get the booze and drive us around! hahah.
I LOVE YOU TRUCKLOADS, DARLING :D

2005-10-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
and throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride in our private lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me

And now ain't nothing else I can need
And now I'm singing `cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you, baby you're with me

So don't cha worry about people hanging around
They ain't bring us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
And that's why, that's why I say

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

2005-10-27T13:14:00.000+08:00

i've been learning to count my blessings, so here's God's Top Ten Blessings to Me;
What I Love The Most:

10. AHH MINGDAO;wangzi wangzi!
9. little children & the ocean
8. gorgeous sky, closest to heaven
7. CHOCOLATES
6. SUSHI SUSHI SUSHI
5. ESPLANADE (:
4. CHEEEEER!
3. let's DANCE (:
2. MY GREATEST FRIENDS xD
1. MY FAVOURITE GIRL ON EARTH <3

life's too good to be true :D

2005-10-23T19:18:00.000+08:00

THE PHOTOS TAKEN ON THE LAST TWO DAYS OF SCHOOL:
http://sg.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/thebleedingheartshow/slideshow?.dir=/dd2e&.src=ph

When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

2005-10-23T14:07:00.000+08:00

OHKAY, i was very happy yesterday, but i don't really know why. must be the sushi, haha! (:
went to ac open house with huiping & dora, then we caught Goal!. a so very inspirational show, nice (: and being very very deprived, dora & i attempted to (window) shop at PARKWAY PARADE. who the hell shops at parkway, please! haha

it was the last day of school on friday, which makes me very very sad because i'm so gonna miss everyone & everything in st nics so fucking much! BUT everyone's gonna be sadder because they'll miss me even more, AWW!
so, dear friends, I LOVE ALL OF YOU SO SO SO MUCH! and, YOU KNOW YOU LOVE ME TOO! (:

THE LIU XING HUA YUAN CAST

and that's what i go to school for (:

2005-10-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

valine's moving to santa monica for good early next year, and i'm going to be very very sad because i will miss her very very much. so, i decided that i'll move there in a few years time too! haha then i can be her neighbour and we'll shopshopshop all day! YAY :D
but til then, i don't know what i'll do without val. ):
thank god, at least we still have a few months together.

I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH, VALINE TJITRA!

2005-10-18T18:53:00.000+08:00

oh sushi, you have my <3
(:

2005-10-16T00:22:00.000+08:00

I don't care now where we live
It's not where, or what, or who we're with
I just need you in my life
So promise me again
When memories fade
We've got each other
When time and confusion collide
Singing I hold it all when I hold you

I won't do this without you
So take heart
`Cos you know that you have mine

And it feels like we could last forever
And I'm not doing this alone

(:

Hundred Years

2005-10-13T17:02:00.000+08:00

interesting day in school, had some mission talk thingy. cried like fuck la, how utterly embarrassing, especially when they played 100 years. and then we hugged our friends, said our thank-yous to our teachers, and like sang songs and more songs. i actually said sorry to miss chooteckchan and HUGGED her! like normally we wouldn't even wanna go near or touch her, hehh. but well, she was all nice, which made me feel really sorry and bad. oh well.
i'm so gonna miss all my friends and the yummy food and wally the weighing machine and the nice fat track and the awsens balcony and the spacious toilets and the corridors where we skatescootered/carried & raped each other and the badly doodled-on desks and the dusty old blackboards (my nails agree,haha) and the countless staircases and the gym tramp and the many many many mirrors.

fuck, i'm so gonna miss st nics! ):

And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

2005-10-10T23:08:00.000+08:00

SORRY

The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I'll bite my tongue till it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know

2005-10-10T03:19:00.000+08:00

thanks to these brilliant and scheming LIARS,

i had the greatest and most surprising surprise in my entire sixteen years of life. hahaha, they were totally adorable standing there, holding those vanguards. & i loved the sparkles, the more surprises, the totally gorgeous and yummy cake,

the BUMBOAT ride, and all the effort they put in to make everything work out. i'm the most blessed girl in the world and seriously, they:

are my FAVOURITE and the LOVES OF MY LIFE simply because they make me very very very

THANK THANK THANK ALL OF YOU! YOU REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU! THANKS FOR MAKING THIS BIRTHDAY WEEKEND MY BESTEST ONE!
I LOVE YOU!!!!!! :D

You're too good to be true,
I can't take my eyes off you

<3

Dance Inside

2005-10-04T18:37:00.000+08:00

i think i'm one of the luckiest person in the world and i'm terribly sorry for being almost suicidal yesterday!

wah, although my results ain't what you'd call good, i'm pretty satisfied because i didn't study. i probably don't even deserve my grades. but, god is too good to me! AHHH (:
so, i conclude that i'm a very lucky person because i have a great god, great family, great gf, great bestfriend, great friends. someone tell me i don't deserve all of these/them! :D

Don't waste now, precious time
We'll dance inside the song

What I'm Trying To Say

2005-10-02T13:40:00.000+08:00

flagging at town yesterday with the cell and sichen. i haven't flagged since secondary 2 and i was practically DYING. my legs and back were like breaking. but oh well, it was for good cause anyway, plus this elderly angmoh woman made me feel quite happy by calling me 'sweetheart' :D
then we had lunch and off to parkway, where we attempted to shop. i was pretty broke, unfortunately. still, i can't believe i left town WITHOUT shopping! ):

anyways, i'm quite happy because my doubts are pretty much cleared. maybe, i should get my distorted perception of certain matters straight. or maybe, i should just stop thinking too much.

I am trying to say what I want to say
Without having to say ' I love you'